Daily Blog #322
“Sincerity makes the very least person to be of more value than the most talented hypocrite.” – Charles Spurgeon
Let me tell you one thing, it does not feel good to think of yourself as a hypocrite, especially when your goal in life is to do more good for yourself, and for those around you.
I got news recently that my parents were contemplating moving back to Salt Lake City, Utah – a place that my family has once resided before for all of six months. After missing home and not being able to adapt to a different culture as easily as we anticipated, we decided to pack up and move back home to Minneapolis, Minnesota.
When my parents told me about the possibility of them moving back, I simply brushed it off thinking there was no chance of that happening. Why? Because when we lived there once before, my mom felt the same way about Utah as I did. It was a place that we could see ourselves visiting again, but forget about the idea of ever moving back for good. It just wasn’t for us… at the time.
When I embarked on my journey to redefine my life and chase all of my dreams, I also annoyed my family into doing the same. Maybe it’s by coincidence, but I truly feel that every person in my family is the happiest that they have ever been since I started challenging them to push for their dreams. For me, that makes me proud.
But yesterday I was forced to swallow some of my pride and admit my wrongdoings. My parents told me that they were, in fact, moving back to Utah, and they would be doing so rather quickly.
At that moment, guilt and shame fell over me and I knew that I owed my mom an apology. I had no doubt that my dad was wanting to move back to Utah because he enjoyed it the first time, but I doubted that my mom ever would.
Right after I started to realize that I was in the wrong, I started to write a text message to her apologizing. At that time, she randomly made a pitstop to my house on her way home from work. Let’s just call it fate. While I intended on simply texting her an apology, which would have been much easier, I decided to tell her in person.
She had no idea what I was talking about. I told her that I apologized for doubting her, and I told her that I didn’t believe she had the strength to actually move back. I mean why would she when we both felt the same way about Utah only a few years prior?
The part that makes me feel like a hypocrite is how I preach the importance of following your dreams, and here I was doubting the dreams of my mom. The person who arguably believes in me the most, the person who wants me to achieve every crazy thought that runs through my mind, and I couldn’t even find the will to return the favor.
One of the main reasons that I wasn’t willing to believe in her is because I didn’t want to face the idea of what was likely to become a reality. As close of a family as we are, I didn’t want to imagine what life would look like with my parents living states away. They have always been my two best friends, and the thought of losing them is devastating.
What I was forgetting to realize, though, is that while I will miss my parents, they deserve to live their dreams. After giving their lives to provide a better life for my sisters and I, always being there for not only for us, but for our friends as well, and after taking care of their parents for years, it’s about time that they do something for themselves and start to live the life that they want to live. It’s the least that they deserve/
What I am trying to say is practice what you preach. If you tell people to go follow their dreams, then support them when they actually do follow them despite how different your reality might be. It may not be what you want, but others lives are not yours to live. We all have our one life to live, and if we want others to let us live our lives to the fullest, then we need to return the favor.
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