Live the best life that you possibly can.
My mind feels like it is spinning out of control right now. I am as happy as I have ever been, but at the same time, I am stressed out to the max. Looking back, I have never experienced this combination. Never in my life have I been this happy, but this stressed at the same time. One second, I am grinning from ear to ear, and the other, my face is showing no emotions. It is an incredibly weird feeling.
Today, I decided to take a leap of faith and let go of my fears. One of the things that I stress and fear the most in life is money. I mean, I am very blessed to be able to provide for myself, but it is this game with money that I play with myself in my head that drives me crazy. It isn’t that I mind spending money. Well, I take that back. I don’t mind spending money just as long as it’s not my own money… Yeah, this is called being spoiled.
An opportunity came up, and it was one that I would have been foolish to pass on. I was offered to go on a trip to Hawaii for nine days in the month of December. A five star all inclusive resort on Kona Island. The only catch (if you even want to call it that), I would have to be for my travel too and from.
Most people would jump on that opportunity without even second guessing it. Maxing out credit cards, working a second job, you name it, most would probably do it. But I am not most people. The largest balance on my credit card has maybe been a few hundred dollars, I have one job, and overall, I am very tight with my money. And trust me, when I say tight, I mean TIGHT. Like I won’t even go to Target to buy clothes. It is either Amazon, or a local thrift shop.
Well, I did it anyway. I pumped myself up, told myself to practice what I preach, and booked the damn trip. After spending 46k SkyMiles and an additional $740, it is official. I am going on a nine day vacation to Kona Island.
I was offered this opportunity two days ago and knew that I wanted to go. But I also knew that I had to act fast, because the longer I pondered whether I should go or not, the less likely it would have been that I would actually have gone. I am not bashing myself, but I do tend to be a bit of a flake. It seems that the more time I have to think about things, the more time my brain has to come up with all of these unlikely scenarios that ultimately prevent me from actually following through on the initial thought.
Am I stressed about the amount of money that I just spent? Absolutely. This is truthfully the first time that I have had to pay for my own travel, and for it to cost nearly a thousand dollars, I think that most people in their right minds would be a little stressed.
At the same time that I am feeling stressed, I am also beyond happy, and beyond proud of myself. Not only am I happy because I am going on what I assume will be one of the best vacations of my life, but I am also proud of myself because I decided to take a leap of faith and let go of my fears. For that split moment when it came time to book the vacation, I let go of all of the games that constantly play in my mind, and I pushed myself out of my comfort zone.
Throughout the entire process of booking this vacation, two thoughts kept coming into my head. Two of the same thoughts that I outlined in Why You Should Choose To Be Yourself.
The first thought that came to my head was to live the best life that I can possibly live, and jump on every single opportunity that comes my way in life. If I want to take vacation from work, then so be it, I deserve it. And if I want to travel and explore the world like I say I do, then there is no better opportunity to do so. There is so much to life that I want to see and experience, so why not live in the moment and just live the best possible life that I can.
This ties into the second thought that kept coming through my mind. Take a risk in life, because tomorrow is never guaranteed. Who knows if I will even be alive in a month. I mean, I hope I am so that I can experience Hawaii, but there is never a guarantee. So if tomorrow is never guaranteed, why let the numbers in my bank account prevent me from experiencing life? Why stress about the future, and passing up on opportunities in the present, when future is never guaranteed?
The thing is, tomorrow is never guaranteed for any of us. So instead of letting your thoughts of the future control your every move in life, take a leap of faith and trust yourself. Take a leap of faith, and let go of your fears. This is your one chance to ever be alive, so make the most of it, and live for the things that will make your life memorable.
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