Full disclaimer, I may be a bit of a hypocrite on this topic, but I am writing this simply because I want everyone to learn from my mistakes.
Money. It is such a sore subject for most individuals to talk about. But why? We all need money to some extent in order to survive, we all use money as part of our everyday lives, and quite frankly, we all throw money around like it is going out of style. So, with money being such a large part of our lives, why do we shy away from talking about it? Is it really worth it to stress about money?
I am the type of person who stresses greatly when it comes to money. While I am blessed enough to be able to afford a lot of things, I still struggle walking through the grocery store and spending “extra money” on name brands. If I can save a penny, you better believe that I will.
This isn’t necessarily a bad thing until you let it consume your thoughts. For me, that’s exactly what money had done.
There is this little game that constantly plays in my head. I tell myself that I want to see my bank account at a certain number, and only then I will ease up on myself. But when the time comes where I reach that number, it becomes a whole new game to see how much further I can go, and how much more money I can save.
Year after year, I sit and I watch my bank account grow. Pretty cool, right? Yeah, not really. Year after year of watching my bank account grow has translated into year after year of looking back and seeing how many memories I have missed out on. Memories that people around me were making, memories that my family was making, and memories that my friends were making. Everyone but me. All because I was letting money, and the thought of having more money rule my mind.
I want to be very clear on something. You know the saying, “Money doesn’t buy happiness?” That saying is the absolute truth. The more I watched my money accumulate, and the more money that I saved, the more miserable I became.
No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t get over the game that was constantly playing in my head. I was never able to ease up on myself, and I never rewarded myself for all of my hard work. There was always this idea that in order to be better, the more money I had to have.
But what happens to all of that money when I die?
It was that exact thought that has helped me to do a better job with controlling my fear of money, simply because that thought is the truth.
It’s not like I am not going to be able to take money with me when I die. It’s not like anybody is going to remember me for the amount of money that I had in my bank account. And it’s not like the money that I leave behind is going to be of much value to anyone else.
What I will be remembered by are the memories that I am able to make with those closest to me, and the impact that I am able to create in the lives of others. Or, in my case, the lack of memories and impact that I was able to make because I allowed money to control me.
Whether we have one dollar, or millions of dollars, I think it is fair to say that we all have this want and desire for more. So much so, that we are willing to sacrifice the things in life that actually matter the most just so that we can make an extra few dollars. But at the end of the day, it’s really not worth it.
Life is so much more valuable than any dollar amount. Go out, create new experiences, and just live the best life that you can possible live. Trust me, life is so much more enjoyable when we live for the memories and the good times, instead of living for a number that will never define who we are as individuals.
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