Reflecting on life and all of it’s blessings
Do you ever just sit back and think to yourself how you got to where you are in life? That is how I have been thinking the last few days. It is really difficult to explain, but I just can’t stop thinking about my past, especially my childhood. Every spare moment that my brain has had to think has been spent reflecting on life and just reminiscing my childhood. The crazy thing? It hasn’t made me sad. It has made me more thankful than anything and makes me want to live my life that much more.
Here is where it is weird for me to explain my emotions. See, I am the youngest of three kids. My sisters were born 10 months apart, and then along came little perfect me six years later. Yes, my nickname is “Favorite.” My family has been through many ups and downs, but no matter what we are still eachothers best friends. We do everything together and share everything with each other (sometimes inappropriate things). We spend weekends, watch sporting events, even call each other up on a weeknight to go get a beer. It is almost as if we are best friends instead of family. For an example of this, see the picture below. This was the cake that my parents got me when I came home from my freshman year of college.
For the record, I am beyond fixated with numbers and money. Last weekend, I thought that it would be appropriate to ask my dad how I was doing financially for a 24 year old. He told me that when he was my age, he had two kids and was making half of what I currently am. He also shared with me that neither of my parents made what I make until they were in their thirties.
This absolutely blew me away. Why? Because when I was a kid, I thought that I had the richest parents in the entire world. It wasn’t because my parents bought all of the nice and fancy things for themselves and went around “flexing” all of their money. It was because they bought me and my sisters everything that we ever wanted and more. With all of this, they were managing to put my two sisters through college and still love each other as much as they still do.
I had to take a moment and catch my emotions. With my dad sharing this with me, it has made me realize how truly blessed that I was/am. Blessed because my parents loved me with all of their heart, and blessed because my parents provided for me no matter how much or little money they had. I mean I had everything that I could have ever imagined. It was just hard for me to imagine this because of how rarely I was told no when I wanted something. A new hockey stick? I got it. A new Xbox or game? I got it. They never said they had to wait until their next payday, they just got it.
Then here is me. A 24 year old single guy thinking that I am not making enough money for my age. I don’t treat myself or treat the people around me. I am known as one of the stingiest people that you will ever meet, and it is all because I am scared. Fear consumes my thoughts that I might lose my job and I will be a disappointment because I will have no money. So now, I just save every last dime that I possibly can. Literally.
In reflecting on my life and childhood, it has just made me realize how awesome my life truly is and how blessed I am to have the family that I do. It isn’t because of the fact that I was spoiled beyond belief. It is because how hard my parents worked and how much they provided for me. I mean I think about getting a soda in the checkout at the grocery store and seeing an extra $2 leaving my pocket so I put it back. As a kid, you don’t see it that way, at least I didn’t. If you see something you like, you don’t think about how much money your parents have, you just annoy them in trying to get it.
I guess what I am trying to say is thank you to my mom and dad. It is important for us all to realize that no matter where we are in life or what we have, life is one big gift. We need to reflect on our past and reflect on the blessings instead of the negatives. Realize how much you truly had instead of how little. Let me tell you, in doing so, I can’t help but see life as one big blessing that is way too short to not be enjoyed. Reflect, remember, and realize your blessings. Say thank you and just live your life instead of worrying about the little things.
Again, thank you Mom and Dad for everything. Also, thanks to Adara and Kory for being the best sisters ever.
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