Daily Blog #304
I have been doing a lot of deep thinking lately. Deep thinking to find an even deeper meaning for my life. Sure, I am passionate about many things. I am passionate about my family, my development as a person, and doing what I can to live a better life today than I did yesterday.
But just like every other person, I too want more. What is it that I was put here on this earth to do? What is it that I want to continue to live by and continue to spread? Simply put, what is my why for living life? These are some of the questions that I often find myself thinking about.
After sitting down and just thinking to myself last night, there was one word that was constantly passing through my mind. That word, imperfection. It actually didn’t just pass through my mind. It stuck there and consumed all of my thoughts.
I remember thinking to myself how much I have learned to love the word imperfection, and more specifically, the meaning behind it. The meaning that nothing in life is perfect. And it was at that moment that I realized that I had found my why. The why behind everything that I do in life is focused around one word, and one word only – imperfection. If you learn nothing else from me, I at least want you to learn that it’s okay to be imperfect.
My life is far more meaningful than just waking up everyday and going to work, or waiting for the weekends to start living the life that I dream of living. And it is far more meaningful than any amount of failure of judgement that I am going to endure in my life. My life is about learning from the many mistakes that I have and will continue to make in life, and it is also about continuing to love the imperfect person that I am on a daily basis.
Out of my many trials and errors that I have endured, I have learned to accept the fact that I am not perfect, and I will never be perfect. Truth be told, I no longer strive to be perfect either. And it is only because I have accepted this fact that I have been able to get my life back.
But I don’t just want to live my why. I want to show it. I want to do everything in my control to help those that live in the world around me, and I want to show everyone that our struggles and failures do not define our life. I have made many mistakes throughout my life, and I am going to continue to make many more the older I get. Those mistakes, though, don’t define my life. They will not define my happiness, and they will not define what I am capable of achieving.
I am more than depression, I am more than an eating disorder, and I am more than the opinions of others. I am my why, and my why is far too important to keep just to myself. Not in an egotistical way, but in a way that I truly believe will be of benefit to every single person.
Even though I haven’t always realized this, with every story that I have published, this has been the underlying backbone to all of my motivation. Being the imperfect person that I am, it has taken me over 300 days of consecutive writing to figure this out. And guess what, it will most definitely change and adapt the older and wiser I get.
I don’t publically share my life with anyone who is willing to read about it because I am looking for fame, and I don’t talk about my past because I am looking for attention or sympathy. I do so because I want to continue to live and spread a message that accepting our imperfections is one of the best things that we can do for ourselves. Not only is it freeing, but it allows us to see all of the amazing gifts that our life is already filled with. Trust me, the sooner that we all realize this, the better our life will be.
The world is going to try to influence us, and others are going to try to shape our beliefs. But just like you and I, remember that nobody who walks this earth is, or will ever be perfect. So don’t chase something that can’t be achieved. Instead, learn to embrace your imperfections, and learn to love yourself for the many mistakes that you are going to make.
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